Joyous Birthday

Today is her birthday and while I wish I was still an important figure in her life, all I can do is sit on the sideline and watch as I'm not. Nonetheless, it doesn't help that I still speak to her through emails and other ways because none of it changes the emotions I feel. Therefore I am done with it all and now I just have to engulf my life with the Lord more than ever because that's the only way I find peace from the storm. Still I hope they have a joyous birthday.